L-O-V-E aint all that junk that you see on T.V.

Because lately...
I just keep hearing people blame love..
but love doesn't walk away.

People do.





Sometimes I hate it when others say they have given up on love. I myself have said it a time or two. People say the phrase like they think love has hurt them, but in actuality, it was a person, a thing, a wrong decision, a bad mistake, an accident... and so on.

Although, I agree with not having someone say they love me unless they really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it. I mean, who wouldn't, if you're with someone in a committed relationship, more than likely wouldn't you think they were being sincere? It's hard not to actually fall in love with the idea of falling in love. It's every little girl's dream to one day be swept off their feet by some handsome fellow. I can remember day's of dreaming up idea's of how my knight and shining armor would come rescue me from my tower. It's quite funny to reminisce on actually.

An idea I like is the principle of having two loves in your life. The first love is the one that you think sweeps you off your feet, the one that you are so easy to fall head over heels for. You imagine your future with them, and have difficulty picturing that future without them in it, but then things go array. Everything is magic until it becomes routine, the little things they used to do to make you happy may fade, or even disappear. They begin to change the way you view yourself and the way you view the world around you. The facade of this perfect and ideal love is shifting it's shape into something new and unfamiliar to you. The feelings that you once had fade into something you did not expect, something you no longer enjoy, and as much as it pains you, you must sooner or later face that fact that the 'love' you once had is now gone. You may even begin thinking to yourself, "I'll be unhappy now, because it will make me happier later, because that's how the fairy tale story works." Staying with something in hopes of being happy later, but having no guarantees of that happiness is a sad excuse for not accepting the truth. I know this idea far too well.

When you are young it is said that everything feels like the end of the world, and usually once this love fades and breaks into little pieces that may be how you feel. It's hard to get rid of the empty void that was once filled with good times, romantic adventures, thoughts and moments surrounding the other. Every little thing has the potential of reminding you of the one you are trying so hard to forget, and it seems the harder you try the worse it becomes. And one of the things that will hurt the most is pretending that it doesn't hurt at all.

I'm not saying that one should not jump head first and take a chance on love because all relationships end this way, for that is not true. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all. Wouldn't you much rather love than not love at all?

"If I have given my all and still do not win, I haven't lost. Others might remember the winning or the losing; I remember the journey."

You'll begin to move on, attempt to pick up the shambled pieces, but never are successfully able to do it entirely on your own, but it is greatly possible to become happy. You do not need a relationship to be happy, it's just nice to have one sometimes. It's nice to feel needed, loved, to have a hand to hold, and all of the above, but you can definitely get by satisfactorily or even joyfully without one. Happiness is something I believe can be created. It's not something that is just going to magically appear, you have to make it appear. Do the little things that make you smile. Dance in the rain, just because you can. Surround yourself by those that can make you laugh. Sing a song out of tune, just for the heck of it. Go on a road trip with no destination, just because you can. Remind yourself of all the wonderful blessings God create. Sleep outside under the stars.. and so on.

Don't sit back and miss out on life just because you want to still experience things with the one you loved. Show them, and more importantly, show yourself that you are a strong being and can make it through anything. There is ALWAYS something to be thankful for.

Change is inevitable, people change, things change, we change. The moment we stop changing is the moment that are lives will be complete. We often just sit back and wait for change, but why wait when you can make some changes yourself? Just make sure the changes that you make are changes for the better, and if something isn't changing how you would like it to, change your view point on the situation.

On another thought, I should introduce you to the second love of your life. When it comes to true love and happiness, it can be looked at as a grand example of the waiting game. You aren't necessarily looking for them, that's the best part, the second love of your life is the one that is unexpected. Things will begin to click and fit together in ways that you thought you once knew, but could only imagine. You'll be afraid to let down the walls that you had previously built up, but the second person will be understanding and patient and carefully chisel the pieces of the wall down, bit by bit. Then slowly but surely they will begin to take all the little pieces of you that were broken and shattered once you had lost the first and carefully put them back together after. They make you regain faith in the silly little word called love. That's just what love is.. a silly little word.. that is, until you give the word meaning. The second love of you life will be the person that gives that word meaning.

If you really think about it, you can have many "first loves" in your life, but you will only have one true second love. It takes work, a lot of pain, difficult and lonely times to find your second love, but once you have found them, the strife of the first loves will be minuscule, and hidden within your past. You'll know longer worry about the what if's, or we should've done this, or could've done that, if it was meant to be with them it would happen. You wouldn't have such pain, or worries of it not working out.

With the second love you may face difficult times, but you get through those difficult times, you see the light shining through, very bright at the end of the tunnel.


It is written in the 13th chapter of 1st Corinthians, "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.." and so on, and it is so very true! God has created a love for us that will surpass what we receive during the times with our firsts.

When you lose everything you want, you find the one thing you need.

This truly has been one big ramble of thoughts, I could continue on all day, but if so, I might as well just write a book!

I am going to end this with the following:
I watched you walk out of my life once more, and unlike before it did not make me bitter or cynical about love... but rather, it made me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, just imagine how beautiful it will be when the right one, my second, comes along. :)